prodigy in making or not?

When I was twelve, I didn't even know what The Malay College was. Till then in one evening when I woke up from a good nap, my mum called me. She said the school secretary sent an offer letter. It was an offer letter to boarding school. My father told me the school is located in Kuala Kangsar, Perak. In that time, I didn't know whether I was fully awoke or still in process of waking up my conscious, I just said yes and I wanted to go to that school. Both my parent cannot say anything because it was my will. A week before I went there for registration, I went back to my grandparent's house. My grandpa did know about The Malay College. He said that school groomed a lot of big name in the history. I was not that adore of anything yet in that time.

Since I was there in form one till form five. There were lot of thing I saw and learn. From appearance till virtue that I had being taught. But all of these weren't coming from the text books and most of them made from the environment in the eton of the east. When I was in lower form, I was one of the highest community, AJK Batch. What was funny thing was I had a fever a day after the community being announce. This community is set to keep 126 of motherrussians in line and drove the batch. What do you expect from 14 years old boy to do? Along the way to become mature in leading people, there were misjudged, one sided and more perhaps. The most things that made me as I'm now during I was in basketball and yet under legendary coach in Sekolah Berasrama Penuh. He is Mr. Liew. Thus far, i can only say he is the first non Malay who is really willing to help young Malay boys to succeed that i met. He said once, "If I can coach you to be a good basketball player, at least I can teach you to be a good citizen in future". I saw the impact of what he said and yet I'm proud to be under his coaching.

After graduated from koleq,yet with the modest SPM result, I resumed my pre-tertiary education in matriculation. It was in Negeri Sembilan Matriculation College. What a new world I was then. Previously, I was in one gender scenario. Being shocked with the change? NO! But the thing was when it comes to my background, I would rather not to let anyone where I was from before. It is an pride to be a collegian. But the way some people received it and reacted, somehow I didn't like. More over, when someone's voice sounded a bit like this, "Wow, you are budak koleq". I literally didn't get why people, who is 'adored' about koleq love to sound like sarcastically. I didn't know what s/he was up to in her/ his mind. People's thought, who can control them. I did survived during my year in matriculation as i secured to get a quite impressive result as some interviewer would ask me,"are you an ambitious person, aren't you?".

After spending a year in mixing with other lads, I did throw myself down to south of Malaysia, Skudai to be exact, with secure myself a place in mechanical engineering course in Universiti Teknologi Malaysia. On the other hand, i was offered by government agency to further my study abroad yet an interview must be gone through to get the offer. Somehow, there was a plot of few narrow mind set up occurred. Of course, I was the one, who being questioned about my credibility. I never proud of being chosen as one of the candidate to receive the offer, yet I had asked myself why I being picked out of thousands, who had got a greater result in matriculation than me. The plot happened in orientation week with four or five persons involved. At first, I told my colleague that I being offered study abroad. A quite negative remark I heard from his mouth. I was a bit offended after that. I thought I would get a support to take the offer. The similar remarks i got from the others. I didn't take too personally because the feeling of jealousy might be ran in their heart.

The interview was gone through by me although i was being interviewed for a short while rather than the others. Someway, I thought I wouldn't be selected. Roughly, two months after the interview, the result came out. And I didn't get it. Such a long wait that i waited for. Life got in its flow after that. About 5 weeks after that, my dad called me and told me that I got second intake for that offer. It took almost 2 days for me to decide whether to stay in Skudai or move in a new place and a very big challenge will came in. I decided to move in a new place that literally I being taught by the surrounding what a friend would be.

A year after in private university, all the minimum requirements for second year entry in University of Sheffield, i had passed it. From now, Tuesday, 3.45 p.m in Malaysia time, roughly I have 7 days before I be there. A lot of difficulties and challenges waiting for me. "prodigy in making or not?" is a shoutout yet a big question in me. All these while, everything is running smoothly. There will be uncertainties in future. Therefore, It leave only on me whether I can coup up or not.

4 months ago...

It was 4 months ago. Lots of things happening in 120 days of time lines. The most date i remember was 5th June. The date that a new price for black gold was announced. Of course the most people angered with the announcement. As the world oil price is controlled by the capitalist in G8 countries and not from oil producer countries. We cannot blame for one side (i'm not trying to adore or speaking highly about the government because they have lots of problem on themselves). But what i can say is Malaysia is a rich land with its resources, yet people here may not realize it or they may realize it but a the world is ruled by capitalism. Rich become richer and vice verse.

In late June, there was a big controversy, sodomy allegation. Yet, it was like the same thing as in 1998. Ask me? I can say I doubt about it. Whether to believe or not, I'm waiting for the real answer.

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might be make you shocked after you read it.

holiday, exam, and time....

Normally April and May, most of colleagues are having exam mood!!! except for me... kinda different from others... while they are on holiday, i'm on the course to finish my second semester. Totally 7 weeks of study to go... When i complete my first year of degree, most of my friends are going back to their respective universities. so, of course, it will leaving me alone with bored to death. haha2... Through out these 7 weeks, i have a big and quite difficult task to be done. i can declare it a war against myself. Because i didn't do well in last semester, seems that i have to take the consequence. it's time to learn form mistake again. I just want to get at least a par to the deal that i had doen it in order to have the scholarship. A lot of homeworks and hard works to be done...
pray for me...

kebanyakan....

actually, it is first time i write an essay in bahasa after school... hehe2... ok2... sebabnye kebanyakan artikel yang perlu saya tulis dalam bahasa inggeris... apabila kita baru masuk ke dalam sesuatu organisasi dan kumpulan, tidak kiralah ia sudah lama ditubuhkan atau tidak. kebanyakan orang di dalam organisasi itu mengharapkan sesuatu. jadi nak dijadikan cerita... menurut pengalamanku... i was joining a group of undergraduate programe. ako adalah seorang budak baru dan rata-rata semua orang dalam group tue adalah orang yang baru ako kenal walaupun ako pernah kenal hanya sekadar tahu nama sahaja. saya ni bukanlah seorang yang teringin sangat untuk kenal semua orang melainkan ada perkara yang penting untuk dilakukan... dan maka pelbagai karenahlah yang dapat ako tengok... kekadang ako cuba untuk memuaskan hati semua orang tapi hendaklah ako mementingkan diriku juga... mengenali seseorang bukan memakan masa satu atau dua hari sahaja... mungkin 3 minggu atau pun bertahun- tahun... tapi ako juga terasa pelik sepanjang ako hidup ini, jarang ada orang yang datang dekat ako untuk menegurku atas tingkah lakuku yang kadang- kadang menyakitkan hati orang lain. ako pun tak pernah mintak dilayan sebegitu tinggi macam ako ni seorang ditaktor. walhal ako sangat membenci orang yang berperangai ditaktor. selalu timbul dalam kepalaku, mengapa mereka tidak menanyakan kepadaku jika ako berbuat demikian... kekadang ako tak perasan tindak tanduku itu menyebabkan yang sebaliknye... ako juga tak suka akan sikap yes ma'am/sir...
sebab itu sikap seorang hamba!!! kita semua ada hak untuk bercakap... poning2...

Not going well...

through out few weeks ago, i felt like there was something not going well on me. may be i was living too comfort before. it is human norm, i think. i just want somebody HELP ME!!!!!!!!!! to get out of this feeling....

the worst performance i had watched

Last night, there was a malam warisan budaya in my college. If i interpret the meaning of the theme, it would be like culture performance. At first, i thought it would be nice to see the culture performance. But, thing turned around when i was in the hall. there were few culture performance like silat and tarian, but what i was quite anxious when there were performance that led by guitar.
Yet most song were English song. I may not be anxious if they played some kind of traditional songs with the guitar, and that show how creative they were. And so about the guys that were given a task as MC. The whole performance was not in smooth flow. I don't know that if they took the event for granted. But, when i watched it, it was like as 'Melepaskan batuk di tangga' event.