kebanyakan....

actually, it is first time i write an essay in bahasa after school... hehe2... ok2... sebabnye kebanyakan artikel yang perlu saya tulis dalam bahasa inggeris... apabila kita baru masuk ke dalam sesuatu organisasi dan kumpulan, tidak kiralah ia sudah lama ditubuhkan atau tidak. kebanyakan orang di dalam organisasi itu mengharapkan sesuatu. jadi nak dijadikan cerita... menurut pengalamanku... i was joining a group of undergraduate programe. ako adalah seorang budak baru dan rata-rata semua orang dalam group tue adalah orang yang baru ako kenal walaupun ako pernah kenal hanya sekadar tahu nama sahaja. saya ni bukanlah seorang yang teringin sangat untuk kenal semua orang melainkan ada perkara yang penting untuk dilakukan... dan maka pelbagai karenahlah yang dapat ako tengok... kekadang ako cuba untuk memuaskan hati semua orang tapi hendaklah ako mementingkan diriku juga... mengenali seseorang bukan memakan masa satu atau dua hari sahaja... mungkin 3 minggu atau pun bertahun- tahun... tapi ako juga terasa pelik sepanjang ako hidup ini, jarang ada orang yang datang dekat ako untuk menegurku atas tingkah lakuku yang kadang- kadang menyakitkan hati orang lain. ako pun tak pernah mintak dilayan sebegitu tinggi macam ako ni seorang ditaktor. walhal ako sangat membenci orang yang berperangai ditaktor. selalu timbul dalam kepalaku, mengapa mereka tidak menanyakan kepadaku jika ako berbuat demikian... kekadang ako tak perasan tindak tanduku itu menyebabkan yang sebaliknye... ako juga tak suka akan sikap yes ma'am/sir...
sebab itu sikap seorang hamba!!! kita semua ada hak untuk bercakap... poning2...

Not going well...

through out few weeks ago, i felt like there was something not going well on me. may be i was living too comfort before. it is human norm, i think. i just want somebody HELP ME!!!!!!!!!! to get out of this feeling....

the worst performance i had watched

Last night, there was a malam warisan budaya in my college. If i interpret the meaning of the theme, it would be like culture performance. At first, i thought it would be nice to see the culture performance. But, thing turned around when i was in the hall. there were few culture performance like silat and tarian, but what i was quite anxious when there were performance that led by guitar.
Yet most song were English song. I may not be anxious if they played some kind of traditional songs with the guitar, and that show how creative they were. And so about the guys that were given a task as MC. The whole performance was not in smooth flow. I don't know that if they took the event for granted. But, when i watched it, it was like as 'Melepaskan batuk di tangga' event.

Something that I made me wondering WHY

I was reading national news papers and alternative news. More over, the issues were about the new state government in Perak and Kedah. It caught my attention to read about them. The issue in Perak was about most all ‘ketua kampung’ and ‘penghulu’ sent a pile of resignation letters to new mentri besar. It was stated in the report that most all the local leader resigned because the state had changed its government by meaning that no longer UMNO ruled Perak. In the report also stated that most of local leader are UMNO supporters. I was thinking why still they were people who can’t accept the new government. Yet, decided to resign just because UMNO no longer ruling the state. Why they were not to get know how the new MB is working with people. I looked at the new MB background was very good. He is an experience engineer, who has worked with public sector for years. He is also a consultant. That means his portfolio is really nice to look. Looking how he deliver his speech to people, he may be a good MB even may be better than previous. Then, leaving an empty role in the top hierarchy of a little kampong made more difficulty to the new state government. Time will be waste a bit upon on reelecting the new ketua kampong. This little system may interrupt the whole system that to make the administration flow smoothly. Why most people in Malaysia still in political mentality?

first time...

This is my first time writing my own blog. i didn't spend so much time on editing this blog due to plenty of reasons. I just hope soon I can have more time on this blog.